It’s so easy to get flustered when something isn’t going your way. Getting annoyed that you can’t seem to tone your body after going to the gym twice is silly, but it happens. Getting irritated that traffic never seems to end after work because you want to go home and put on your PJs is understandable. Even getting frustrated at God is relatable. I mean, not only do we get mad today… but so did people in the Bible. It’s easy to blame God in the face of things we can’t control or understand. Shoot, I’ve had my fair share of pouty talks with God in my short lifetime. Sometimes, though, we need to remind ourselves that we are no longer angsty kids and start working on understanding God differently.
There are two things that have recently shifted my perspective and inspired me to stop being such a whiny baby when it comes to my relationship with God. The first is a song and the second is the story of Job. The worship pastor of my church recently played the song for us at a creative team night (Nothing Else by Cody Carnes). One specific lyric hasn’t been able to escape my mind: “I’m not here for blessings/ Jesus, You don’t owe me anything/ More than anything that You can do/ I just want You.” I don’t know if that’s going to hit you like it hit me, but I was instantly silenced.
My prayers have been filled with things God can do to make my life better, safer, give me more opportunity… And while I have prayed for other people, I don’t know that I’ve asked simply asked God for more of Him. Maybe I have, but I’ve also attached my to-do list onto the prayer. This revelation led me to read the book of Job in the Bible during the past few weeks. Job 1:21 says, “The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away, may the name of the Lord be praised.” This came from the lips of a man who lost nearly everything… may the name of the Lord be praised.
And although I’ve read the book of Job before, I had never once noticed what a powerful statement that was. And yes, Job did low-key duke it out with God in his poetic words throughout the rest of the book but that was his gut reaction- to praise the Lord. There have been times in my life when I’ve lost something and despite my sadness, I have chosen to worship. But nine times out of ten, my heart aches first. I have waltzed myself right up to the creator of the universe (via prayer, of course) and demanded: “why.” But that’s not what any of this is about.
Life is not about knowing the answer or getting all the glory, your life is simply a reflection of your relationship with Him. And while all of us struggle with the thought of wanting the blessing or the prize, deep down our soul yearns for that beautiful relationship with Him. Sometimes it simply takes denying your flesh and putting on a different pair of glasses to see that He is right in front of you and that all we need is Him. I’m not saying to stop asking for miracles, I’m not saying to not ask Him for help. I’m simply telling you this: rather than worry about the next big “win,” worry about the next moment you get to spend with Him. No matter the storm, no matter the waves, let’s be here for more of Him.